FEAR AND PANIC

Today was to be my first day in a new class at WRITE AROUND PORTLAND on an independent voyage through the public transportation system. I took a prerun yesterday with the help of my wife and all went sort-of OK. Today I woke in a panic mode.

I am willing to say I was in high pain and ready to dump the day, class and my chance at improving my writing ( which would help me immensely ).

Partly, I am still worried about my slowness in a crowd, partly I keep wrecking my scooter and may not be able to repare it. I have already wrecked the front end twice and broken the fiberglass. It is a brand new scooter from the V A and I've yet to broach them for repairs.

My pain level is up and has been so since the Candlelight tours at Ft. Vancouver this past Saturday. I had a great time and over did my activities by leaps and bounds. The Visitors to the Fort also showed their appreciation for the gig as well. My stories were well received by the children and adults alike.

The tours went from 3 to 10 pm and stopped just right. I won't be at the debriefing, well most likely not be there. I need to get a better hand on my pain and panic attacks. The Oxycodone is better at controlling pain than the Gabapentin I am now taking. I"ll need a refill soon.

Publishing

I have been very busy this past 6 months working at improving my writing and being published in two anthologies. One was published in June 2007 and the other in August this same year. Mostly I am writing poetry and a few prose. Up Coming this Fall is will be strengthening my plot and character development to improve my short story.

I hope to have enough interest to publish my own first edition, " Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow" for the summer 2008 summer season.