Thursday, January 10, 2008

Ready for a Change

Ready For Change
There comes a time in our lives when we feel ready to experience the change we’ve had trouble carrying out. Maybe we’re stuck in a home, a relationship, job, or a town that hasn’t felt right for a long time, but we’ve been unable to shift our circumstances to the direction we want to go. At times like this, a universal declaration to our readiness for a change specified exactly. Think of it as informing a helpful friend that you need their assistance to move up to the next level in your life. If the time is right, the universe will respond with opportunities designed to help you create the change you wish to see.

You can begin the process of making your declaration by getting clear within yourself what exactly you want to change. Whenever we ask anyone for help, they can assist us much better if we are specific. The universe also appreciates our clarity and has an easier time answering a direct communication. When you are clear as to what you want, write your declaration on a piece of paper and place it on your altar, . You can also place it under your pillow or in a box on your nightstand. Set aside some time every day to be silent with your wishes for change, repeating your declaration like a mantra. This lets the universe know that you are ready to change and will be receptive to its efforts.

Be ready to refine and redefine your declaration. Remember to be open to the many different ways in which the change might come to be. Remember also to be active in your own efforts, taking opportunities that come your way, watching for signs, and take responsibility for your intentions. Things don’t happen quickly, so, try not to be discouraged; it might take time to free up energy that has been blocked . If you continue communicating with the universe, declaring yourself clearly and openly, you cannot help but experience the magic of changing and being changed.

Saturday, January 05, 2008

At your own pace

At Your Own Pace

The Tortoise And The Hare.

There is a story that is a great example to show the difference between a “Normal” and a “Handicap” individual. All to often we show impatience of aggression toward someone slower than ourselves..

The classic tale of the tortoise and the hare reminds us that different people take life at different speeds and that one way is not necessarily superior to another. In fact, in the story it is the slower animal that ends up arriving at the destination first. In the same way, some of us seem to move very quickly through the issues and obstacles we all face in our lives. Others need long periods of time to process their feelings and move into new states of awareness. For those of us who perceive ourselves as moving quickly, it can be painful and exasperating to deal with someone else's slower pace. Yet, just like the tortoise and the hare, we all arrive at the same destination, together, eventually.

People who take their time with things are probably in the minority in most of the world today. We live in a time when speed and productivity are valued above almost anything else. Therefore, people who flow at a slower pace are out of sync with the world and are often pestered and prodded to go faster and do more. This can be not only frustrating but also counterproductive because the stress of being pushed to move faster than one is able to move actually slows progress. On the other hand, if a person's style is honored and supported, they will find their way in their own time and, just like the tortoise, they might just beat the speedier, more easily distracted person to the finish line.

It's important to remember that we are not in a race to get somewhere ahead of someone else, and it is difficult to judge by appearances whether one person has made more progress than another. Whether you count yourself among the fast movers or as one of the slower folks, we can all benefit from respecting the pace that those around us choose for themselves. This way, we can keep our eyes on our own journey, knowing that we will all end up together in the end.

Friday, December 28, 2007

The Statement of a wise man

Subject: The statement of a wise man.
I loved this when I read it. Merry Christmas and and Happy New Year to all of you and your families!
> The statement of a wise man.> > The following was written by Ben Stein and recited by him on CBS Sunday > Morning Commentary.> > My confession:> > I am a Jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. And it does not > bother me even a little bit when people call those beautiful lit up, > bejeweled trees Christmas trees. I don't feel threatened. I don't feel > discriminated against. That's what they are: Christmas trees.> > > > It doesn't bother me a bit when people say, 'Merry Christmas' to me. I don't > think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact, > I kind of like it. It shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrating > this happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there is a manger > scene on display at a key intersection near my beach house in Malibu . If > people want a crèche, it's just as fine with me as is the Menorah a few > hundred yards away .> > > > I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think > Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I think people > who believe in God are sick and tired of getting pushed around, period. I > have no idea where the concept came from that America is an explicitly > atheist country. I can't find it in the Constitution and I don't like it > being shoved down my throat.> > > > Or maybe I can put it another way: where did the idea come from that we > should worship Nick and Jessica and we aren't allowed to worship God as we > understand Him? I guess that's a sign that I'm getting old, too. But there > are a lot of us who are wondering where Nick and Jessica came from and where > the America we knew went to.> > > > In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a > little different: This is not intended to be a joke; it's not funny, it's > intended to get you thinking.> > > > Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson > asked her 'How could God let something like this happen?' (regarding > Katrina); Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. > She said, 'I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for > years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our > government and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I > believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His > blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?' > > > > In light of recent events...terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I > think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body > found recently) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools , and we > said OK.> > Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school. The Bible says > thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as > yourself. And we said OK. > > > > Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they > misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we might > damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide). We said an > expert should know what he's talking about. And we said OK.> > > > Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they > don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill > strangers, their classmates, and themselves.> > > > Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I > think it has a great deal to do with 'WE REAP WHAT WE SOW.' > > > > Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the > world's going to hell. Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but > question what the Bible says . Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail > and they spread like wildfire but when you start sending messages regarding > the Lord, people think twice about sharing. Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar > and obscene articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion > of God is suppressed in the school and workplace.> > > > Are you laughing?> > > > Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on > your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they > will think of you for sending it.> > > > Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than > what God thinks of us.> > > > Pass it on if you think it has merit. If not then just discard it... no one > will know you did. But, if you discard this thought process, don't sit back > and complain about what bad shape the world is in My Best Regards.> > Honestly and respectfully,> > > > Ben Stein> > > > Amen=

Thursday, December 27, 2007

WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT

THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT!
It was a busy morning, approximately 8:30 A.M., when an elderly gentleman in his 80's, arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam, it waswell healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, we began to engage in conversation. I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I then inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease. As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now. Iwas surprised, and asked him, "And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?" He smiled as he patted my hand and said, "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is." I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life." True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

The Season

Merry Christmas. Tis the Season to be Thankful. I know I have been mournful of my lot at this time of year. Then I was confronted by some who have much less and some who have lost all. The devastation along thew coast of Oregon not to far from here has given me a healthy thankfulness for all I have and not for all I have-not. So that being said, I wish all a very happy Yule and a peaceful New Year.
Peace,
Rocco

Friday, December 14, 2007

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Sight vs Vision



Sight is the ability to see the physical world while vision is the gift of seeing beyond it. Sight enables us to take the world in so we can participate in it with knowledge. It brings pleasure to perceive the colors and shapes of all of nature and human beings. It helps us feel in control, which way we are going, and exactly where we are standing at a given moment. We are able to read, navigate, sense, and perceive how a person is feeling by the expressions that cross there face. As anyone who has lost their eyesight can tell you, there are things that are clearer when you cannot see the world through your eyes. One of the reasons many meditation instructors advise sitting with the eyes closed is because we become more in touch with our inner world when we are not distracted by the outer world. It is in this state that vision becomes our mode of seeing. Vision comes from within and shows us how to navigate the realms of thought, feeling, and emotion. It enables us to see things that aren’t yet manifested in the world of form, and it also connects us to that part of ourselves that exists separately from the world of form.
As we age, even those of us with perfect eyesight will generally lose some of our acuity, but this loss is usually replaced with inner vision. This is the time of life when we are meant to turn inside and take what are sometimes the very first steps of a journey that cannot be traced on a map. We call upon intuition and feel our way along a path that ultimately carries us beyond the realm we can see with our eyes and into the land of spirit.

What do you think?

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Quote

Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.
Theodore Roosevelt

I have Ben in council with several groups and our topic has been the poor state of personal affairs of the people here in the U S and the world. I for one have seen a different world before and during the second world war. People were much more apt to make sure the neighbors had what was necessary and no-one was without. We made scarfs for the needy in town.We talked to our neighbors and made sure they knew we were there for them, for chat a shoulder to cry on and just a place to come and sit for some small talk. Life was better than ever since. Yes we have more gadgets and we have more distance coverage by what we play with. What we don't have is a fair understanding of our neighbors nor any type of hold on the pulse of or neighborhood. We don't try to get a hold. Why, maybe it is because we are afraid ...a fear made real by the newspaper, radio news, t.v.news and just constant reports of home to lock ourselves in our own homes.

I am not sure if any or all of this makes sense to you by it does to me.

Monday, October 08, 2007

The End and The Begining

The end of 2006 has passed and beginning of 2007 has appeared with little change. There are the usual notations on the casualties of a “war against something or other”. Since the first of the year, prices have gone up and the new billboard ads are trying to get people walk and mass-transit more than drive. The push for private space is starting to be the same as Japan some 160 years ago.
My year was as usual with deaths in December and life beginning in May. A very close friend had to commit his wife in the state mental hospital. ( I trained it back there to help him with the details for the action and the beginning of a divorce. His health is poorly. My sister is doing well after her surgery before Christmas. (I worry about her.)
Heather is in her second quarter at Clark College and enjoying it. Her grades are up there and she is an A student. She may be able to graduate in the Spring of 2008.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Decisions of Life


Decisions of Life
The decisions we make each day shapes who we are and what we are composed of. When we choose one option over another, we shape our lives. The decision making process allows us to enjoy the benefits of self-determination. It can also be a source of anxiety. Decision making forces us to face the possibility of dissatisfaction. As a result, many of us choose to avoid making decisions and allow others to make them for us. We turn our power over to others; spouses, relatives, friends, and colleagues, granting them the power to shape our lives that is ours by right. Though the decisions we make are often difficult, we grow more self-sufficient and secure each time we trust ourselves enough to choose. Ultimately, only we can know how the options before us will impact our daily life and our long-term well-being. Within us lies the power to competently weigh the advantages and disadvantages of each decision. Even if we feel incapable of making a decision, our inner wisdom and our intuitive mind will give us sound counsel if we have faith in ourselves. Try to come to our own conclusions before seeking the guidance of others, and even then, treat their suggestions as suggestions rather than votes pro or con to our own conclusions. Before making our choice, release the fear of wrong decisions. Perceived mistakes can lead us down wonderful and unexpected paths that expose us to life-changing insights. If we can let go of the notion that choices are utterly right or entirely wrong, we will be less tempted to invite others to take the reigns of our destiny. When our choices are our own, we will be more likely to accept and be satisfied with the outcome of those choices. Our decisions will be a pure reflection of our desires, our creativity, our awareness, and our power. Since we understand that we must live with and take responsibility for our own decisions, we will likely exercise greater care when coming to conclusions. As we learn to make autonomous choices, secure in the knowledge that it is our information and not others opinions guiding us, we will gain the freedom to consciously direct the flow of your life without interference.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

FEAR AND PANIC

Today was to be my first day in a new class at WRITE AROUND PORTLAND on an independent voyage through the public transportation system. I took a prerun yesterday with the help of my wife and all went sort-of OK. Today I woke in a panic mode.

I am willing to say I was in high pain and ready to dump the day, class and my chance at improving my writing ( which would help me immensely ).

Partly, I am still worried about my slowness in a crowd, partly I keep wrecking my scooter and may not be able to repare it. I have already wrecked the front end twice and broken the fiberglass. It is a brand new scooter from the V A and I've yet to broach them for repairs.

My pain level is up and has been so since the Candlelight tours at Ft. Vancouver this past Saturday. I had a great time and over did my activities by leaps and bounds. The Visitors to the Fort also showed their appreciation for the gig as well. My stories were well received by the children and adults alike.

The tours went from 3 to 10 pm and stopped just right. I won't be at the debriefing, well most likely not be there. I need to get a better hand on my pain and panic attacks. The Oxycodone is better at controlling pain than the Gabapentin I am now taking. I"ll need a refill soon.

Monday, September 10, 2007

Publishing

I have been very busy this past 6 months working at improving my writing and being published in two anthologies. One was published in June 2007 and the other in August this same year. Mostly I am writing poetry and a few prose. Up Coming this Fall is will be strengthening my plot and character development to improve my short story.

I hope to have enough interest to publish my own first edition, " Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow" for the summer 2008 summer season.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Seven Philosophies

Seven Philosophies for the Native American Man.
"Being Indian is mainly in your heart. It's a way of walking with the earth instead of upon it. A lot of the history books talk about us Indians in the past tense, but we don't plan on going anywhere... We have lost so much, but the thing that holds us together is that we all belong to and are protectors of the earth; that's the reason for us being here. Mother Earth is not a resource, she is an heirloom." ~David Ipinia, Yurok Artist,The following was from the Gathering of Native American Men in June 1996 at Colorado. Approximately 2000 Native American Men, families, and friends gathered their from June 1 to 2 representing about 115Tribes.What are the Seven Philosophies?
The Seven Philosophies for a Native American Man are guidelines for Indian men on their journey through life. The wisdom of Native Elders is contained in the Seven Philosophies and is offered to Native American men so that they may be better fathers, sons, husbands, uncles,relatives, friends, Tribal members and citizens of the countries in which they live. The Seven Philosophies point the way towards are turn to the values of Native American culture for the healing of individuals,families and Native Communities.

First Philosophy

TO THE WOMEN The cycle of life for the woman is the baby, girl, woman, and grandmother. These are the four directions of life. She has been given by natural laws, the ability to reproduce life. The most sacred of all things is life. Therefore, all men should treat her with dignity and respect. Never was it our way to harm her mentally or physically. Indian men were never abusers. We always treated our women with respect and understanding. So from now on:• I will treat women in a sacred manner. The Creator gave women the responsibility for bringing new life into the world. Life is sacred,so I will look upon the women in a sacred manner.• In our traditional ways, the woman is the foundation of the family.I will work with her to create a home atmosphere of respect,security and harmony.• I will refrain from any form of emotional or physical abuse. If I have these feelings, I will talk to the Creator for guidance.• I will treat all women as if they were my own female relatives.This is my vow.

Second Philosophy

TO THE CHILDREN As an eagle prepares its young to leave the nest will all the skills and knowledge it needs to participate in life, in the same manner so will I guide my children. I will use the culture to prepare them for life.• The most important thing I can give to my children is my time. I will spend time with them in order to learn from them and to listen to them.• I will teach my children to pray, as well as the importance of respect.• We are the caretakers of the children for the Creator. They are His children, not ours.• I am proud of our own Native language. I will learn it if I can and help my children to learn it.• In today's world it is easy for the children to go astray, so I will work to provide positive alternatives for them. I will teach them the culture. I will encourage education. I will encourage sports. I will encourage them to talk to the Elders for guidance; but mostly,I will seek to be a role model myself.• I make this commitment to my children so they will have courage and find guidance through traditional ways.

Third Philosophy

TO THE FAMILY The creator gave to us the family, which is the place where all teachings are handed down from the grandparent, to the parent, and to the child. The children's behavior is a mirror of the parents behavior. Knowing this, I realize the importance for each Indian man to build a strong and balanced family. By doing this, I will break the cycle of hurt and ensure the positive and mental health of the children,even the children yet to be born. So from now on:• I will dedicate my priorities to rebuilding my family• I must never give up and leave my family only to the mother.• I am accountable to restore the strength of my family. To do this, I will nurture our family's spiritual, cultural, and social health. I will demonstrate trust, respect, honor and discipline; but mostly I will be consistent in whatever I do with them.• I will see that the grandparents and community Elders play a significant role in the education of my children.• I realize that the male and female together are fundamental to our family life. I will listen to my mates council for our family's benefit, as well as for the benefit of my Nation.

Fourth Philosophy

TO THE COMMUNITY The Indian community provides many things for the family. The most important is the sense of belonging; that is, to belong to "the people",and to have a place to go. Our Indian communities need to be restored to health so the future generation will be guaranteed a place to go for culture, language and Indian socializing. In the community, the honor of one is the honor of all and the pain of one is the pain of all. I will work to strengthen recovery in all parts of my community. As an Indian man:• I will give back to my community by donating my time and talents when I am able.• I will cultivate friendships with other Indian men for mutual support and strength.• I will consider the effects of our decisions on behalf of the next seven generations; in this way, our children and grandchildren will inherit healthy communities.• I will care about those in my community so that the mind changers,alcohol and drugs, will vanish, and our communities will forever be free of violence.• If each of us can do all these things, then others will follow our will be a proud community.

Fifth Philosophy

TO THE EARTH Our Mother Earth is the source of all life, whether it be the plants,the two-legged, four-legged, winged ones or human beings. The Mother Earth is the greatest teacher, if we listen, observe and respect her.When we live in harmony with the Mother Earth, she will recycle the things we consume and make them available to our children and to their children. As an Indian man, I must teach my children how to care for the Earth so it is there for the future generations. So from now on:• I realize the Earth is our mother. I will treat her with honor and respect.• I will honor the interconnectedness of all things and all forms of life.• I will realize the Earth does not belong to us, but we belong to the Earth.• The natural law is the ultimate authority upon the lands and water.I will learn the knowledge and wisdom of the natural laws. I will pass this knowledge in to my children.The mother Earth is a living entity that maintains life. I will speak out in a good way whenever I see someone abusing the Earth. Just as I would protect my own mother, so will I protect the Earth. I will ensure that the land, water, and air will be intact for my children and my children's children - unborn.

Sixth Philosophy
TO THE CREATOR

As an Indian man, I realize we make no gains without the Great Spirit being in our lives. Neither I nor anything I attempt to do, will work without the Creator. Being Indian and being spiritual has the same meaning. Spirituality is out gift from the Great One. This day, I vow to walk the Red Road.• As an Indian man, I will return to the traditional and spiritual values which have guided my ancestors for the past generations.• I will look with new eyes on the powers of our ceremonies and religious ways, for they are important to the very survival of our people.• We have survived and are going to grow and flourish spiritually.We will fulfil our teachings and the purpose that the Creator has given us with dignity.• Each day, I will pray and ask for guidance. I will commit to walk the Red Road, or whatever the spiritual way is called in my own culture.• If I am Christian, I will be a good one. If I am traditional, I will walk this road with dedication.• If each if us can do these things then others will follow. From this day forward, I will reserve time and energy for spirituality,seeking to know the Creators will.

Seventh Philosophy

TO MYSELF I will think about what kind of person I want to be when I am an Elder.I will start developing myself now to be this person.• I will walk with the Great Spirit and the grandfathers at my side.I will develop myself to remain positive. I will develop a good mind.• I will examine myself daily to see what I did good and what I need to improve. I will examine my strength and weaknesses, then I will ask the Creator to guide me. I will develop a good mind.• Each day, I will listen to the Creators voice in the wind. I will watch nature and ask to be shown a lesson which will occur on my path.• I will seek out the guiding principles which guided my ancestors.I will walk in dignity, honor and humility, conducting myself as a warrior.• I will seek the guidance of the Elders so that I may maintain the knowledge of culture, ceremonies, and songs, and so that I may pass these on to the future generations.• I choose to do all these things myself, because no one else can do them for me.• I know I cannot give away what I don't have so I will need to walk the talk.What we have is because someone stood up before us. What our Seventh Generation will have is a consequence of our actions today

Away and Back Again

It has been Seeveral months since posted. The past 2+ months have been a had time for me. I am now more confined to a wheel chair than not. I have received from the V A a motorized scooter to allow me get out of the house more and do short travels. NOw I accompany my Bride on her morning 2.5 mile walks. Every one here at home has held up under the strain an allowed me to try to be free.

My new scooter is already in a front smasher. The damage is minor but it is fiberglass and that means payinf someone to repair it. Oh well all in a new day of trying to be independent.

My writting has improved since my last Writer Around Portland group. This fall I will be be taking a course at Clark College and one with Write Around Portland. On the 24th of this month, I will be published in two Anthologies. Since that is the reward for completing the sessions, I will have a third Anthology with at least one more of my works in it.

I will post the two I have published now during this next week, if only for my own pleasure. MY next plan is to try to have a small book published before Christmas. If I can be accepted by the local Portland/Vancouver community, I may be able to spread out over the two states. We shall see what the future holds.

Peace and a good life to all.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Holidays

This week-end is the weeked once called "Decoration Day", and it saw to hold family and friends in our concious minds. It fell on the last day in May, the 31st. Now we hold Decorations Day on the last Sundasy of May and gfive trhose(especially Federal Employees) an extra day off. There are other Holidays doomed to the same fate. Colombus Day, Linclon's Birth Day, Washington's Birth Day to name three more. It won't be long before all Holidays will suffer the same fate of convenience for work sake. New years will be set for the last sunday in december, christmas will be the second from last sunday in december, Thanksgiving will be on some non-discript day in november. Our Veterans Day will be celebrated on a more convenient day in September. There may finally be a recognized day for the celebration of the First Nation Heros seperate from the the rest of the Heros in All of the Americas. There may be some way to make neutral all honoring days. Then again, there may be a way to seperate the Spiritual Holidays for All the people, Blacks, Whites, Yellows and Reds. This could be done so the non-spiritual days could be left to the businesses to decide which days to let their employees off and let everyone off for all religious days. Which religions, ALL religions, showing no favors, and let these days be the traditional days of holy celebration, be they White, Black, Yellow and Red and be available to all people not seperate by reverence.

Friday, May 25, 2007

The Warriors Way

If you have a chance to make life better for others and fail to do so, you are wasting your time on Earth. No matter what our station in life, we are here to serve, even if that sometimes means making the greatest sacrifice of all.

A warrior is challenged to assume responsibility, practice humility, and display the power of giving, and then center his or her life around a core of spirituality. I challenge today's youth to live like a warrior.

"Billy Mills"

These are some harsh words to lay before anyone, much less our youth. Yet, seeing the way our land and spiritual well being are being effected with the absents of "The Warriors Way", it is time to instill these honorable Character in the leaders of tomorrow. Then if that is to be the way, the responsibilities for those lessons fall upon the "Elders and Seniors". There are no excuses. As I was told some 60 years ago, 'if there none in my family tribe who wants to learn and and live the warriors life, go and seek students elsewhere. It is better to have learning passed to someone than to have that knowledge lost forever.'

I am now wanting to set one night aside to help anyone who wants, learn and slowly gather knowledge through chats on IM. Write me if you are interested.

Klahowya

R Two Bears

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

IF I DARED

If I dare to assume my year started on the normal turn of the year and not on my birth date, I have the honor this year surpasses any single year from my past. I of course exclude the years 1966-68 while I was in The Nam...
Instead of having people shooting at me and me shooting back, I watch my medical life slowly shrink short 15 minute walks. I thought it was hard enough that the local Star Bucks was 3/4 quarter of a mile away... Now is seems to be out of reach by ambulating. No friends or expensive coffee with a nice confection on the side. Sure I can make coffee at home and yes I can make Orange Cinnamon Bismark to have at home. It is true my wonderful wife has an alert mind and shares with me the thoughts of the day as I do for her. There was a reward for being able to traverse the distance of 3/4 miles to retrieve my reward and sit, rest and chat for a few minutes then to return home by accepting the challenge of another 3/4 miles and Safety making it HOME!!! In these past three years I have had the challenge of walking w/o a can (sometimes) to a need for one cane definitely. Then the lower legs and back caused me to need two canes at times, then forearm crutches and now even they are not letting me travel any great distance. An example was yesterday I covered a 15 minute distance of about 100 feet..
I know there are others of a less ability to walk at all. I can go see them in the V A hospital in Portland, or a Vets group meeting at a Vet center, yet I am not talking about them...I am talking about me...
I am not looking for pitty nor am I looking for people to rush to my side showing concern. I am not even calling for help. I just need to vent and hope when you see a person on the street, you will be kind enough to hold a door (whether they like it or not, most do) try not to push ahead so as to knock them off balance. There is no-where so important as to be less then polite and concerned for another human being.
I've had my say and now I can rest here in my favorite spot and watch the birds and listen to their songs.

Peace to you all and to all a GOOD LIFE

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Publishing

I am in the process of having one of my short {and I do mean short} stories published in the "Walk Around Portland" Anthology for Spring of 2007. There will be a reading this May around the middle of the month. My excitement has risen to a bit of a high, partly because the Anthology Committee has had a hard time choosing one of the three I had submitted. There was only room for one writing and they could not choose from the three I had submitted.

I am also being encouraged to collect all of my writings and then have them bound and published here in Portland. I think I have someone who will be able to assist me in collecting and revising the works.

I looked for my writings and learned I have spread them all over my office area. That is my first task and one I am needing to learn to save time in the future. The idea of a small journal to carry with me every day and a file of journals is a grand idea. It would help keep all the writings in one central area.

I am looking at this turn in my life as a way to make some spare change and maybe set myself on the road to being a known author in the Portland Vancouver literary arena.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Moving on in Honor

Saying Good-bye To A Home

I was sitting here and thinking about some of the thing my parents and grand parents did when we moved from place to place. I can still remember though it was over 60 years ago. My Grandma was the leader of the family and she started with some singing about the life we shared with our home. She told the spirits how we felt about leaving the place and not knowing if the home would be honored or hurt. We had to move and she explained where we were going and what we hoped to find there, like work or medical or more land to farm. Saying good-bye was and is an important part of moving forward. It gave us a sense of completion so that we are able to fully inhabit our new space, having left nothing of ourselves behind in the old one. In this way, we honor the space that had held and nurtured us. At the same time, we cleanse it and empty it of our energy so that the new residents can make the space theirs. Plan a walk through your home that begins and ends at the front door. Ideally, you will be alone or accompanied only by a person who shared the space with you. Prepare yourself mentally to be as present as you can during this process. Now you enter the house, you might say, "I have come to thank you for being my home and to say good-bye." You might touch the walls with your hands as you move through the house, or you might burn sage as an offering, as well as an energy cleanser. Spend some time in each room expressing your gratitude and gathering or releasing any lingering energy from the room. As you do this, you are freeing your home to embrace its new occupants. Remember to visit your outside spaces as well. Plants are especially sensitive to the energy around them and will appreciate your consideration. As you make your way back to the front door, know that you have completed your final journey through your home and that you have honored and blessed it with this ritual of farewell. As you close and lock the door behind you, say one last good-bye. Now you can walk freely into your future and fully inhabit the new spaces that will keep you safe and warm
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Friday, March 30, 2007

Unqualified Happiness Only

March 30,

Since most of our experiences are rooted in cause and effect, we naturally want to justify our contentment. We envision grand circumstances, stating that if only we could achieve this goal or obtain that possession, we would finally be in a position to attain happiness. As a result, satisfaction is always just out of reach and the very notion of grabbing hold of it seems like nothing more than a pipe dream. But the truth is that sincere contentment and fulfillment are never wholly the result of external events or situations. Though life's joyful moments can ignite the spark of contentment within us, that spark is fueled by serenity long established in our souls. When we forget this, it is easy to become stuck in "if only" patterns of thought. If we concentrate on the natural serenity that exists within us, however, we can move forward unimpeded by disappointment. The circumstances you live through each day have the potential to bring both joy and despair into your life. Relying on the reactions they awaken within you to create an emotional foundation means living on a roller coaster of feeling whose course is determined by chance. Though you may yearn for the object of your desire-be it a new job, financial health, a spouse, or some other symbol of success-you have within you the power to be happy without it. Letting go of your "if only" thinking patterns can be as easy as recognizing that inward emptiness cannot be dispelled with outer world solutions. Try creating a list of your "if only"s. Then literally and figuratively let go of the items on the list by tearing it up or burning it. This simple action can help set in motion the intention to set you free, enabling you to make a fresh and balanced start in the present, unencumbered by regrets and unfulfilled desires. There will likely be periods in your life in which you find yourself tempted to seek a magic formula for fulfillment that is centered upon a single goal or achievement. But the ingredients that come together to form the seeds of happiness that can sustain your spirit throughout the triumphs and trials of existence come from within rather than from without. When your search for satisfaction is focused on your soul, you will never fail to find the joy you seek.